Hey, why aren't I anonymous anymore? That's no fun.
On an unrelated topic, I have OCD. I am controlled by these thoughts, even though I actually know that what I am doing is ridiculous and nothing bad will happen, there is just an overwhelming feeling that it might and then, the guilt and fear consumes me.
Imagine ironing a shirt, turning the iron off and later checking you turned it off before leaving the house. That seems reasonable. However when you check it again, you feel compelled to check again and again. It is like your brain hasn’t realised you have checked it. There is no saved image of the iron being off. However you actually know you have checked it. Even when you have kept on looking, within a split second you question it.
Basically, even though you know it’s off you still think it’s on. The more stressed I feel about the checking process the more I need to look again. I suppose it would be easier to not iron at all. Even then I can feel the need to check it even though it hasn’t actually been turned on. It’s like you are rational one second and irrational the next.
Thanks for letting me vent.
P.S. The Best Show has been awful lately, Tom needs to pick it up! And enough of the Wurster calls. That guy lost it years ago.
