I have always found a way, one way or another, to do the crap I need to do. I'm not saying it would be easy, or that it would be the best thing you ever did, but you know what I mean.
You are such a big fan of AM that I think, if you miss her, you're going to regret it.
Let's say 20 years from now ... are you going to be saying to yourself, "gee I did a good job on that freelance project!" or "Man I am so glad I saw Aimee"?